Thoughts on trial: Why can't I simply rest?

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We live our lives so fast, leaving no time to actually grasp the wisdom of a moment in stillness. For there are almost none.

We’re constantly chasing fulfillment driven by a firm belief of not being complete. A belief of not being enough the way we are right here and now. Although we can’t be more complete and secure as we always have been.

These moments between the words and thoughts, the do’s and wants, make us feel uncomfortable. The reason why it’s so difficult to maintain a meditative state for a longer period.

It doesn’t let us rest. We’re constantly submitted to a feeling, pushing us to do or solve something. As if standing still would be a waste of time.

All of our doing gives us a sense of security. A sense of being in control.

If we try to step out of it through meditation, we get nervous.

Going within and open for what will happen means we’re giving up control, and this requires having trust.

We don’t trust in life, although life never gave us a reason to not trust.

If we put into perspective what life really is about and what it’s not, things become a bit clearer.

Life just works. It’s a perfectly balanced system that doesn’t require to be understood or to be manipulated.

We look at nature as if we would stand apart. Though the only thing that sets us apart is our mind.

We breathe, digest food and sleep without us intervening. It just happens and it always works. Same like nature. We’re part of it.

For instance, if you’re like me, having issues to let go the day and fall asleep, it’s lack of trust. A dominating mind, trying to solve all the problems and to be in control.

For the requirements of life we need to take care of are very simple: We need food, social interactions and shelter. That’s it.

All the rest just works.

We can eat, but we’re not digesting, nor make sure that oxygen and elements our body needs are well processed. Same with everything harming our body to be evacuated. It just happens.

We can prepare ourselves for sleeping, but we don’t fall asleep. It just happens. We’re not in control.

It’s the way we live that manipulates and renders a malfunctioning of the system, causing mental and physical health issues.

Resting requires us to be ok the way it is and the way we are in that moment. To cease controlling and to just be. Allowing life to have control over us, so to speak.